Writing is something that I think I just like the idea of.
I’m not too sure.
I get into these mindsets where I really want to write. I think that I have it all together. And I sit down and get myself organized.
I open up the screen, lay my hands on the keyboard and it’s as if everything that was running through my mind earlier; every thought, every idea is gone. Just like that.
I have some serious issues with trying to get the words out of my head and through my fingers. I have pictures and storylines racing around in my head all of the time, but sometimes, I just can’t bring anything to life.
Although, every once in a while, it’s like an explosion.
It’s like every inkling has been squeezed from my imagination and I find myself typing furiously for hours, words spilling out as if they’ve been suppressed for too long, keeping myself going on coffee and cigarettes. And I think that I have it. I think that finally I have broken through and am on my way to create something incredible.
Until, of course, I decide to read back on my work.
The high has disappeared from my system and replaced itself with a feeling of disappointment. Rocks in my stomach. I find myself reading something that reminds me of something else.
I don’t trust my own judgement.
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I know exactly what you mean - I have the exact same feeling with whatever I write - blogs, songs, stories, anything.
Usually I have that moment of frenzied writing late at night, just before I go to sleep. And then, in the morning, I'm not always happy with it - even if the night before I thought it was the best thing I've ever done.
Though it strikes me as interesting that someone can write such a brilliant and thought-provoking post like this and not realise how good their writing is.
You just made my day.
i can relate to that so well! there are so many stories and characters in my head, but when it comes to actually writing them down.. near impossible. everything just comes out terrible.
practicing would help, i guess? i really should write more often :(
i love how you write btw. i was like, "wow", reading that second last paragraph. x
Jot down ideas when they come to you and they'll soon work their way into paragraphs. Writing by hand makes things flow better.
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