Five Years

I feel guilty that I keep forgetting today is the day, five years ago, that changed my life forever.

I suppose, to be exact, at 2am on July 24th was when the walls caved in.

I keep thinking that I'm okay with it. I'm finding it easier to laugh and enjoy life this time round, but I can't escape the feeling it leaves in my chest.
They say that you never really get over it, you just learn to live with it. You get used to it. You're able to look at the good times and smile because they happened, not cry because they're over.

It hurts me more to know that I've actually learnt to live with it.

I wish I could remember her voice.