It's Harder to Walk Away.

I’ve never really felt like I have anything big to look forward to.
Over the past six years, no matter what my ambition or goal they were always interrupted.
Like anyone does, I did grow past those goals and create new ones, only to have them interrupted again by whatever crisis or life event that was thrown my way.
I even went through a stage where I felt like the only thing I had coming for me was disappointment.
It scares me even writing this, because I feel like I’m going to jinx myself or something.
And although I’ve just been ripped away from the most important person in my life, and in the aftermath of that, a change in lifestyle, perhaps the positive is that I am free.
There is nothing holding me back and nothing to stop me from breaking out of my comfort zone for perhaps the first time in my life.

But just like spending time with others to get to know them, you couldn’t possibly know who you are without spending time with yourself.
And I am afraid. Of course, I’m scared to death. I’ve never really been alone before.