Insecurity

I don't really know what to do at the moment.

I've kind of reached one of those forks in the road where I have to decide to either put up with things that really hurt and upset me, or to walk away from the most important thing in the world to me.

I know that the right thing to do is to try putting up with these things. Remind myself that I'm loved, and I shouldn't be worried. That he wouldn't do anything to purpously hurt me, but that doesn't mean he's going to do everything by "my rules".

It's just hard to settle down with something, or someone, when you have your own doubts about the situation. I know they're only doubts, not necessarily having anything at all to do with reality, but what can you do?

These things can't be forgotten.

I wasn't always like this, either.
I used to be calm and collected. Happy and relaxed, ready for whatever was to come my way.
Now I just can't help but to be scared of it all.

I don't want to go anywhere. And he doesn't either.
All I need to do now is make myself believe it.