10:20PM

Lonliness is no friend of mine. However, he tends to hang around me alot. Sometimes, I forget he's there, and sometimes he can't be shaken. Lonliness is no friend of mine.

I think it's pretty amazing, at times like this, when I remind myself that there is somebody out there that I have never even met, who is one day going to make sure I am never lonely again. There is somebody out there who I have never even met, who is going to want to spend the rest of their life with me. There is somebody out there who I have never even met, who is waiting to meet me.

And I think that's pretty exciting.

Junior

I bought Macaulay Culkin's book "Junior" on Ebay for $1.10. One dollar and ten cents. Obviously, with a deal like that, I couldn't say no. I refused to look at any of the reviews online until I had read the book. I don't normally take reviews to heart anyway, because I mean, I'd prefer to find out for myself. But you can't help it. Once you've heard somebody's opinion, it's seered into your brain forever and interupts your own thoughts. It's like if you read Harry Potter before the movies started coming out - now all you see in your mind's eye when you read Harry Potter is Daniel Radcliffe.

I finished the book tonight (it took me less than 24 hours to finish. I have a broken ankle. What the hell else would I be doing with my time?). I immediately jumped online to read reviews, and I must say, I was shocked with what I had come across. Words such as "incoherent", "meaningless", "pretentious" and "simply terrible" appeared on my screen. I closed the screen faster than the page took to load. I musn't spoil this book with bad reviews.

Culkin advises the reader very early on that he is not a writer. If you're looking for a book with a clear beginning, middle, climax and ending, then you shouldn't read Junior. You will simply be disappointed. This is not a novel. It is not a work of fiction or non-fiction. It is not a book of poems or letters. Nor is it excerpts from drunken ramblings or crazy ideas and scattered thoughts. It is a combination of all of the above, and that is exactly the point. I found it difficult to understand why readers couldn't grasp that. I mean, talk about "pretentious".

I'm not sure if I am being biased because I write in a similar fashion to Culkin, but more than anything, I found the "incoherent"-ness of his passages to be strangely comforting. It reminds me of the way everything really is, not the way an editor wanted it to be. It's raw and it's honest, and it's as close to reality as you're going to get in a publication. A peice of work that has been sugar-coated is far more "meaningless" than this book.

And you know what's "simply terrible"? The inability to look beyond "pretentious", "incoherent", "meaningless" passages and not be able to connect with the book and relay it back to your own personal thoughts.

Happy reading.

A Broken Ankle.

I think that it's okay to sometimes have down days. I mean, obviously feeling sad and down in the dumps isn't exactly the best feeling in the world, but it's a feeling nonetheless. You wouldn't want this feeling to capture all areas of your life and drag on from sunrise to sunset, sunrise to sunset, sunrise to sunset. But it's okay, every once in a while, to crawl into bed in the middle of the day, close the blinds and watch a crappy movie. Or listen to sad music. Just a day, or a couple of hours even, devoted to reminiscence and thought. To feel not good enough, or like a failure, or left out. It's only when we admit these things to ourselves that we are able to correct it. Embrace sadness when necessary like you would embrace happiness - and learn how to spring back to your feet.